Of course, all parents want the best for their kids. But in Kelantan, somehow the parents take things the other way around. They tend to plan among themselves, without discussing and planning further with the kids. For example, marriage.
Currently on my 10 days semester break, I've planned to spend more time with the family especially with my 2 years old niece, Evy. The fact that I am having fever now, I am not capable enough to entertain her with the so called "A-weem-ba-web-dance" and when she started to make the sad-cute faces, I JUST WANNA EAT HER ALIVE.
Mama on the other hand, was so excited to match me with her friend's son. -.-"
This is not the first time she did this. There were 4 families came to my house and were so excited to see me. Feel like being on top of KB Mall and shout "Am I that famous ? ! !" I just don't get the way they think.
I haven't crossed all the 'things-to-do' list and they expected me to get married ? Too soon, Ma. Plus, I am in a relationship, for godsake.
Parents tend to forget their kids are no longer "kids". They have set limits and rely on natural consequences for us to learn from making their own mistakes. And somehow they dictated how their kids should behave and do not expect the kids to disagree with their decisions. Yes, the want THE BEST for the kids, but when it involves the man who is going to marry the daughter, they should loosen up a bit.
Parents are firm, with kindness, warmth and love and somehow it's not wrong for them to set high standards and encourage their kids to be independent.
So, KAHWIN? You've got to be kidding me ? !
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Review
I'm 23; this year.
I have so much to accomplish within a short period. Obstacles are always on the path and I should thank to god for giving me strength to put things together. Without obstacles, I won't learn to stand on my feet and counter the wind that blows me hard.
Syukur.
Never imagine to be in final year and only 2 semester to be completed. I'm proud of myself, very. It's actually an alarm to trigger me to say "It's my turn now to repay back the parent's sacrifices." I should face slap myself hard because I was acting so childish and stupid for blaming them not to give out any effort to make my family any better. It's hard when you have to deal with family problems, but mama showed me how strong she is, handling and dealing them all. I guess I got the strength from my mom. She's truly an idol.
& it somehow made me laugh to read back the 2008 and 2009 post. I got obsessed so easily. Well, that's how it works. You review back your past, you compare and at one point you figure how grown up you've become. Maturity is the word.
I've traveled all the way to be where I am now. Travel in this matter is the journey of countering the physical, mental and emotional breakdown. It's not easy to put the everyday-mask just for the sake of telling people "Hey, I'm okay". Yes, I used to wear it everyday. But at one point, I figured it was pointless.
& Adam Lutfie came into my life. Never fail to stop me from pursuing me dream. He's my drug now. He thought me how to be matured, act and think like an adult. Showed me how to see things differently. The path I had to go through won't be as smooth as it would be without him.
He is my inspiration, my big one true love. The best thing that ever happened to me in life and will be the most important thing for me today, tomorrow and forever. Cheesy ? Naaah.
I have so much to accomplish within a short period. Obstacles are always on the path and I should thank to god for giving me strength to put things together. Without obstacles, I won't learn to stand on my feet and counter the wind that blows me hard.
Syukur.
Never imagine to be in final year and only 2 semester to be completed. I'm proud of myself, very. It's actually an alarm to trigger me to say "It's my turn now to repay back the parent's sacrifices." I should face slap myself hard because I was acting so childish and stupid for blaming them not to give out any effort to make my family any better. It's hard when you have to deal with family problems, but mama showed me how strong she is, handling and dealing them all. I guess I got the strength from my mom. She's truly an idol.
& it somehow made me laugh to read back the 2008 and 2009 post. I got obsessed so easily. Well, that's how it works. You review back your past, you compare and at one point you figure how grown up you've become. Maturity is the word.
I've traveled all the way to be where I am now. Travel in this matter is the journey of countering the physical, mental and emotional breakdown. It's not easy to put the everyday-mask just for the sake of telling people "Hey, I'm okay". Yes, I used to wear it everyday. But at one point, I figured it was pointless.
& Adam Lutfie came into my life. Never fail to stop me from pursuing me dream. He's my drug now. He thought me how to be matured, act and think like an adult. Showed me how to see things differently. The path I had to go through won't be as smooth as it would be without him.
He is my inspiration, my big one true love. The best thing that ever happened to me in life and will be the most important thing for me today, tomorrow and forever. Cheesy ? Naaah.
Friday, August 19, 2011
It's alright.
Hey people,
Yeah you can call me insane for not updating my blog for almost a year ? And what makes me wanna continue again ? I am currently enjoying my 1 month + holidays after internship. The 8 months internship passed by quickly without me realizing it. It had been a joyful experience and yes I've learned a lot !
So today I've decided to continue posting something in my blog since I am free most of the time. Okay, CORRECTION : ALL the timeeee.
Anyway, I did read back my previous post and most of them are SOOO PATHETIC ! What was I thinking back then ? Sedih all the time ?? Haih. Gapo dio tahu aku duk bobe kokse dulu. Sedih sokmo. Tok molek ore Kelate kato.
Truly said, sedih sorang2 tak ke mana. I am SUPER happy now. I was being too emotional and sensitive. NOT GOOD NOT GOOD. The no-biggie-thing pun I took it seriously. Come on la, to think back again I was so IDIOT.
I am enjoying every ticks I have in life now. I read books, gossips with mama, layan budu, dance alone in front of the mirror (bajet Britney Spears), babysit my niece, gayut with my boyfriend etc etc and yes I enjoy myself doing all of those simple things.
U might say "Haaa aa laa, benda macam tu pun boleh buat lu happy ka ?"
Well to be honest, I'd rather do those stuff than imagining and blaming myself for not being at a cool place and cuci-mata-ing around and act as if my dad drives a Lambo.
Yes, I don't deny I always fall to downhill and cry whenever I face problems. I cried over some haters telling shits about me to others. I cried because of people making bad assumption towards me. I cried over some stupid-no-biggie matters. But that was before. On second thought, I was completely bodoh back then.
The love ones always thought me to be tough and handle things wisely.
Think-before-you-act and learn to let go.
Say "It's alright" if you happen to face difficulties and try to solve them wisely. Use your brain. We are all smart-people kan, so yea "Guna lah otak sebaik mungkin".
Cheers :)
Yeah you can call me insane for not updating my blog for almost a year ? And what makes me wanna continue again ? I am currently enjoying my 1 month + holidays after internship. The 8 months internship passed by quickly without me realizing it. It had been a joyful experience and yes I've learned a lot !
So today I've decided to continue posting something in my blog since I am free most of the time. Okay, CORRECTION : ALL the timeeee.
Anyway, I did read back my previous post and most of them are SOOO PATHETIC ! What was I thinking back then ? Sedih all the time ?? Haih. Gapo dio tahu aku duk bobe kokse dulu. Sedih sokmo. Tok molek ore Kelate kato.
Truly said, sedih sorang2 tak ke mana. I am SUPER happy now. I was being too emotional and sensitive. NOT GOOD NOT GOOD. The no-biggie-thing pun I took it seriously. Come on la, to think back again I was so IDIOT.
I am enjoying every ticks I have in life now. I read books, gossips with mama, layan budu, dance alone in front of the mirror (bajet Britney Spears), babysit my niece, gayut with my boyfriend etc etc and yes I enjoy myself doing all of those simple things.
U might say "Haaa aa laa, benda macam tu pun boleh buat lu happy ka ?"
Well to be honest, I'd rather do those stuff than imagining and blaming myself for not being at a cool place and cuci-mata-ing around and act as if my dad drives a Lambo.
Yes, I don't deny I always fall to downhill and cry whenever I face problems. I cried over some haters telling shits about me to others. I cried because of people making bad assumption towards me. I cried over some stupid-no-biggie matters. But that was before. On second thought, I was completely bodoh back then.
The love ones always thought me to be tough and handle things wisely.
Think-before-you-act and learn to let go.
Say "It's alright" if you happen to face difficulties and try to solve them wisely. Use your brain. We are all smart-people kan, so yea "Guna lah otak sebaik mungkin".
Cheers :)
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Sharing
Do you share ? Share in term of everything ? Clothes, shampoos, foods, books ? Yes yes yes, I bet you are. I am absolutely agree with "Sharing is caring", but not everything we can share.
I don't share my friend. I want them to stick with me. If someone else take them away from me, I'll evolve to be a very beautiful pontianak and eat them. This is not a joke, I'm serious. Fucking serious. I don't like to share, do you fucking get it ?!
Oh well, it's okay being emotional about this, right ? I just don't fucking share la. I cant type the same statement thousand times just to let glue your mind that we don't share love, friend etc right ? Haih.
If you think you do share, you're mad. Haha.
Oh maybe I am mad :(
I don't share my friend. I want them to stick with me. If someone else take them away from me, I'll evolve to be a very beautiful pontianak and eat them. This is not a joke, I'm serious. Fucking serious. I don't like to share, do you fucking get it ?!
Oh well, it's okay being emotional about this, right ? I just don't fucking share la. I cant type the same statement thousand times just to let glue your mind that we don't share love, friend etc right ? Haih.
If you think you do share, you're mad. Haha.
Oh maybe I am mad :(
Monday, November 15, 2010
Rumit
I am now reaching to a level where everything is not right, everything seems to be so confusing, everything turns into something that I'd never imagined it would be. Kenapa ?
Things are so rumit even yang biasa.
I am depressed, I am sad, I am frustrated.
I used to be so tough handling things alone. I used to be so good alone. I can suck up everything that involves pedih, perit, pilu.
But why Fieda why ?
I am no longer strong to suck it up everything and act like everything is okay. Shaf once told me "you can lie to me, but you never can lie to yourself".
As much as I want to run away from thinking too much on what I am facing now, whenever I turn my head back, they're still following me.
Yes, I need to stop keep things to myself. But how ?
The wonderful times, moments I had, ended so fast. Because everything is actually just a dream, a mistake, I would say.
Yes, thing are so rumit indeed.
Things are so rumit even yang biasa.
I am depressed, I am sad, I am frustrated.
I used to be so tough handling things alone. I used to be so good alone. I can suck up everything that involves pedih, perit, pilu.
But why Fieda why ?
I am no longer strong to suck it up everything and act like everything is okay. Shaf once told me "you can lie to me, but you never can lie to yourself".
As much as I want to run away from thinking too much on what I am facing now, whenever I turn my head back, they're still following me.
Yes, I need to stop keep things to myself. But how ?
The wonderful times, moments I had, ended so fast. Because everything is actually just a dream, a mistake, I would say.
Yes, thing are so rumit indeed.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
;)
Whenever I am down, they always there to make me laugh.
Whenever I am hungry, they will accompany me to go out and eat and
whenever I am facing a hard time, yupe, there they are, SUPPORTING ME, GIVING ME COURAGE not to give up.
I love you. Yes, all of you. (cause u're amazingggg just the wayyy u aree. yeaaa)
They seriously complete me. Hopefully internship wont tear us apart. We're going to have fun next year right, people ? Kumpul duit banyak2 and pergi Korea ! Kan ? Kan ? or nak pergi Surabaya je korang ? HAR HAR HAR.
Whatever happens in the future, just keep in mind I sayang korang. Mana lagi nak dapat kawan yang "kecoh" kan ? Mintak2 nanti intern dah x ada dah habit nak jalan satu line 10 orang. Imagine if we go out to malls. Ya allah, kasihan gila orang nak lalu lalang kan ?
Okay people, I'm not trying to be jiwang all of sudden, it just that being alone in my room made me emotional sekejap. Tak tahu la kenapa emo je sekarang. Haih. Study melayang, tak study pun ! Exams coming up and heck, malas nak mati. :(
OH ! And not to forget these fellas. They are my drugs ! I love them to death ! There is no word can describe how enjoy I am whenever they are around. No more tears, no more stress. I wanna keep all of you in my pocket boleh ? I dont want anyone else take you away from me. Sayang sangat totak ! ;) (Hi Shaf ! Hi Juf ! Hi Mo! *lambai2* )
Because u see people, I am as strong as the table i dance on, the music i play, and the friends i roll with. Got me, mates ? ;)
Whenever I am hungry, they will accompany me to go out and eat and
whenever I am facing a hard time, yupe, there they are, SUPPORTING ME, GIVING ME COURAGE not to give up.
I love you. Yes, all of you. (cause u're amazingggg just the wayyy u aree. yeaaa)
They seriously complete me. Hopefully internship wont tear us apart. We're going to have fun next year right, people ? Kumpul duit banyak2 and pergi Korea ! Kan ? Kan ? or nak pergi Surabaya je korang ? HAR HAR HAR.
Whatever happens in the future, just keep in mind I sayang korang. Mana lagi nak dapat kawan yang "kecoh" kan ? Mintak2 nanti intern dah x ada dah habit nak jalan satu line 10 orang. Imagine if we go out to malls. Ya allah, kasihan gila orang nak lalu lalang kan ?
Okay people, I'm not trying to be jiwang all of sudden, it just that being alone in my room made me emotional sekejap. Tak tahu la kenapa emo je sekarang. Haih. Study melayang, tak study pun ! Exams coming up and heck, malas nak mati. :(
OH ! And not to forget these fellas. They are my drugs ! I love them to death ! There is no word can describe how enjoy I am whenever they are around. No more tears, no more stress. I wanna keep all of you in my pocket boleh ? I dont want anyone else take you away from me. Sayang sangat totak ! ;) (Hi Shaf ! Hi Juf ! Hi Mo! *lambai2* )
Because u see people, I am as strong as the table i dance on, the music i play, and the friends i roll with. Got me, mates ? ;)
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