Sharing

Do you share ? Share in term of everything ? Clothes, shampoos, foods, books ? Yes yes yes, I bet you are. I am absolutely agree with "Sharing is caring", but not everything we can share.

I don't share my friend. I want them to stick with me. If someone else take them away from me, I'll evolve to be a very beautiful pontianak and eat them. This is not a joke, I'm serious. Fucking serious. I don't like to share, do you fucking get it ?!

Oh well, it's okay being emotional about this, right ? I just don't fucking share la. I cant type the same statement thousand times just to let glue your mind that we don't share love, friend etc right ? Haih.

If you think you do share, you're mad. Haha.


Oh maybe I am mad :(

He's nothing but a dream.
He reminds me of someone I'd never had.

<3

Rumit

I am now reaching to a level where everything is not right, everything seems to be so confusing, everything turns into something that I'd never imagined it would be. Kenapa ?

Things are so rumit even yang biasa.

I am depressed, I am sad, I am frustrated.

I used to be so tough handling things alone. I used to be so good alone. I can suck up everything that involves pedih, perit, pilu.

But why Fieda why ?

I am no longer strong to suck it up everything and act like everything is okay. Shaf once told me "you can lie to me, but you never can lie to yourself".

As much as I want to run away from thinking too much on what I am facing now, whenever I turn my head back, they're still following me.
Yes, I need to stop keep things to myself. But how ?

The wonderful times, moments I had, ended so fast. Because everything is actually just a dream, a mistake, I would say.


Yes, thing are so rumit indeed.

;)

Whenever I am down, they always there to make me laugh.
Whenever I am hungry, they will accompany me to go out and eat and
whenever I am facing a hard time, yupe, there they are, SUPPORTING ME, GIVING ME COURAGE not to give up.

I love you. Yes, all of you. (cause u're amazingggg just the wayyy u aree. yeaaa)



They seriously complete me. Hopefully internship wont tear us apart. We're going to have fun next year right, people ? Kumpul duit banyak2 and pergi Korea ! Kan ? Kan ? or nak pergi Surabaya je korang ? HAR HAR HAR.

Whatever happens in the future, just keep in mind I sayang korang. Mana lagi nak dapat kawan yang "kecoh" kan ? Mintak2 nanti intern dah x ada dah habit nak jalan satu line 10 orang. Imagine if we go out to malls. Ya allah, kasihan gila orang nak lalu lalang kan ?

Okay people, I'm not trying to be jiwang all of sudden, it just that being alone in my room made me emotional sekejap. Tak tahu la kenapa emo je sekarang. Haih. Study melayang, tak study pun ! Exams coming up and heck, malas nak mati. :(

OH ! And not to forget these fellas. They are my drugs ! I love them to death ! There is no word can describe how enjoy I am whenever they are around. No more tears, no more stress. I wanna keep all of you in my pocket boleh ? I dont want anyone else take you away from me. Sayang sangat totak ! ;) (Hi Shaf ! Hi Juf ! Hi Mo! *lambai2* )





Because u see people, I am as strong as the table i dance on, the music i play, and the friends i roll with. Got me, mates ? ;)

my family. ;)




i love you.

haters all around,
they can always be found,
hating on me or hating on u,
they have nothing else better to do.

always talking shit,
but i just say fuck it,

i must be doing something right,
i always got a hater by my side,
so keep hating and i will do up right.

JYEAHHH ~

Again & again

i just moved to my new house. yes, again. thanks to daddy because he knows i don't like it much to stay at our previous one. im happy to be back home, seeing mama daddy, the brothers, my niece, and of course the cats ! and the funny part is ;

mama : ado laki handsome dekat sebelah rumah. mesti kakak suko.

OIMAIGAD. :P

BUT, (haha, there's always a "but")everytime i come back here, i dont have a clue on what i should do. DANG !
everyone seems so happy enjoying thier holidays, pergi sana sini. haih.

yes, i only have FEW friends here. u can call me antisocial, but that's the fact people. i dont go out that often when im home. it's not that i dont like to be friends with the people here, but it takes time to get along with them. and by the time i "click", they moved out from here. and nak pergi mana je dekat sini ? besides kb mall, where else should i go ? :'(

and since im expressing my feelings here, i tak tahu la kenapa Alexander Graham Bill invented telephone tapi people these days tak reti nak guna ? they even bought iphone, blackberry and all those expensive phones but sia2 je, tak reti nak answer calls. kasihan sangat mereka2 ini. tak baca manual book la tu.

aih, stress !

so malam ni saya mahu shisha, tak kira, NAK JUGAK !