Boredom

My life had been so hectic these days.

Been busy with dance practices, non-stop stupid shit assignments and test.

So, if you are wondering "where-i-have-been"?, i bet you know the answer.

People updated their blog mostly to share their so called sweet-moments-snapping-pictures-with-sam-bunkface, the happy and exciting moments during the euphonious itself and to criticize the emcee.

To lynn, sumai, aidil and ana : memang la i tak ada gambar dgn diorg, so tak dapat la nak upload :(

Anyways, my group and i made the opening act as the rector arrived at the chancellor hall. But the emcee didn't follow what we've planned during the rehearsal. We are supposed to be on stage right before the rector arrived, but we didnt get any cue and so we just went on stage after he announced the arrival of the rector. Apa laaaa !
Kelam kabut at the beginning but i am 100% sure that we rocked the stage with the so called robotic dance and of course our jazz dance was superbly fantastically WOW the audience. ceeeh~

Right away after the performance, i seriously can't believe what i saw. Ermie, mabeb and madi just arrived at the entrance. "Memang menyirap tahap dewa monyet". They've promised to come early to watch the performance, tapi itu la janji budak budak jambu UTP.

So ladies, don't put too much hopes on budak budak jambu okay ? ;)
HAHAHAHA

( itu je main point sebenarnya )
Okay, itu cerita last week.


And last thursday, i had 2 frigging test and yes, i don't have much time to bermaple maple or ber-ym. Ada basic dance practical test lagi, assignments lagi.
Ya allah, lama lagi nak habis belajar :(

bak kata orang tu, kahwin la the only solution. OH YEAAAHHHH

Jaga Hati

QUESTION : Can you satisfy every single person around you? satisfy them in term of "jaga hati" or make them feel comfortable whenever they're around you ?

Every person has different attitude and personality. and it is hard for me to predict what's on their mind and so how can i satisfy them ?
if i don't, I'll get into a serious trouble as they will absolutely ignore me later on. kan ?

yes, my life is complicated. Even this small issue matters me. One said to me,
"Fieda, be tough. You're a tough girl, remember ? You've been through a lot; family, relationship,etc. "

If i think it twice, i keep on questioning myself, " am i that tough ? "
If I am "tough" as what the person told me, why the hell i can't handle this stupid matter easily ?

sedih la.

in this case;
Why la "this-certain-people" cant just accept me the way i am. i love to laugh out loud, i am a crazy-wacko-ass whenever i lepak, and i absolutely love being me. Jatuh kerusi bila gelak, terhantuk sana sini, SPELL MY NAME, that's me. yes.
How on earth i want to "convert" myself to be some other person as i enjoy this clumsy-ness of mine. (tapi tak ada la selalu)

I wish i could say this to that "particular-person" la kan, but the fact that i want to "jaga hati", and so all i can do is to keep silent.

Tapi tak kisah la,

I HAVE MY SUPERGIRLFRIENDS, and they love me the way i am.
Thank you, sayang.

okay, word of the day is "bakpo".

Bakpo kito keno study ? Tokleh ko kito belajar sapa spm pahtu nikoh ? Bakpo kito dok nikoh denge ore kayo hok semak, ado keto sport, rumoh banglo 3 tikat.
Pahtu boleh shopping gapo gapo jah hok kito nok. Nok gi mano mano pun boleh sebab dio kayo , so kito boleh beli private jet then suko hati nok gi mano. Pahtu ado chef, gardener, ado maid . sedak deh kalu gitu ?

MEME DOHHHH.


merapu, yes i know. Im bored ;(

feel like punching one's face
life's getting more complicated than ever !
WHY WHY WHY it has to go this wayyyy ?! ergh !
nak punch punch, kick kick, tomoi and karate sikit
boleh tak kalau nak macam tu?
boleh lah deh?
ahh!
nok jugoook!
;(

Vday

Happy valentines Day, people !

Though last night I've been fooled by Ermie who said his birthday is today then it turns out that it was basically one of his lame-prank-joke, it does not stop me from wishing all of you a very happy valentines day.

If some say, "we can't celebrate valentines, fieda."
well, I'll reply,
"Screw that! it is not that i am celebrating it. Valentines is just a day that we can express how deep is your love towards your friends or parents. It does not mean we have to hang out or spend our time with our love one.
Valentines is about love, love to our parents, friends and even to our pets! "
(ehe, don't forget to visit my pet at pet society ya, and for those who still do not have facebook, sign up ! and please please please make your own pet in pet society. hehe, been addicted to that application since ever! )

So friends,

i love all of you,
YES, ALL OF YOU
i love you no matter what you all did to me,
all the bahan-membahan-drop-mendrop are like my panties i wear everyday
because i never get tired with all of those,
oh friends, u are my lemak, jantung, hati ku.
aduh! sangat bahagia ada kamu semua.

Enough is enough

i had it enough.
you better stop.













stop from whatever you're doing towards me now.
it hurts.

kau hancurkan hati ku,
hancurkan lagi,
kau hancurkan hati ku,
untuk melihat mu,
kau terangi jiwa ku,
kau redupkan lagi.
dan kau hancurkan hati ku,
untuk melihat mu