What a girl (like me) wants

Ladies, have you ever dream of marrying one rich and handsome man ? life will be a lot easier if that dream comes true. kan? you can buy new clothes everyday!, you can eat whatever you want and the best part is

YOU DON'T HAVE TO STUDY ! !

ye la, all you need to do :
1)duduk di rumah goyang kaki ,
2)go shopping,
3)go holidays
and and and
4) layan the husband, of course. hahaha.

BUT, after 5 minutes of thinking, having a rich and handsome man , susah sebenarnya. The percentage of him to be a player is 99.9% unless that guy is betul betul betul betul LAIN DARI YANG LAIN.
ladies, you better take note about this.

SO HERE ARE THE EXAMPLES "YANG-LAIN-DARI-YANG-LAIN" :



(since mabeb didn't want to give me his picture, so i have to copy-paste this kid's picture. sebab dia comel momel seperti org di atas nya )

okay okay, i should cut this off before i merapu-ing more. the main point here is that im tired of studying and i want to get over this nerdy-geeky-life! Don't tell me you haven't thought of "bila la nak habis study ni?" , "hah? test lagi? ", bla bla.
and sometimes i feel sick whenever i see numbers. Numbers are complicated. Only complicated people understand numbers. agree?

and yesterday i had a differential equation's test. and it was like shit. The main hall is too small to fit all the 1st year 1st sem students and the students who didn't have place to sit, terpaksa duduk on the stage (ramai2, yes) and they definitely can copy each other dengan senang senang nya. And the questions are fantastically tough. (though at first we did discussed sikit-sikit la on what formula should we use (before test tu start), tapi still tak dapat buat) . unbelievable? believe it :(

-enough about yesterday's test.

and now, we're in Ramadhan month kannnn. and of course my brain won't work perfectly if my tummy is empty. Tambah lagi with the ugly weather in Tronoh yang panas and "hujan-lebat-sejuk."

The stress , the mood semua nya unstable. sometimes i feel like throwing my flipflop at the chinese and indian who dgn selambernya minum in the lecture hall. (oh well, they have to learn how to respect us kan? ) but NO, i can't do such thing. (because I'm extremely nice and i expect those people bagi me copy their assignments ke, report ke, or tutorials. hehe)
seeee, be nice to someone else, and that "some one else" pun will do the same thing. (clever fieda*) i knooooooooooooooooooooow ;)


oh well, all of these are nothing but rubbish. Anak raja, "orang-handsome-but-kaya " won't appear immediately if u kiss a frog. we still have to study. *sigh* kalau tak, who else wants to give money to the government kalau bukan Petronas people kan? hehe. (so, study hard petronas scholars, go! go!).

My boyfriend did advise me to have my own mission and vision at every points or titik-titik in life. he said, that titik-titik/points will automatically lead to another. hm,, confuse enough?

(the truth : i don't understand what he was trying to say, but after seeing him succeed in his life, saya tahu, macam-macam mana pun, i have to try my best to understand what he tried to say).


so here are the mission i have for today:

1) tomorrow's sahur is nasi and lauk (been eating nasi and kicap je tau these days)
2) study structured programming for tomorrow's test ( aaaaaaah! )
3) laundry laundry laundry
4) go to bazar ramadhan lebih awal. (kalau tak, lauk habis)


I SHOULD BE PROUD OF MYSELF FOR FINALLY HAVE MISSION for tomorrow. heheheheh

Teddy attack

since "ada-la-orang-tu" posted something about "ada-la-orang-tu" punya teddy bears, me , FIEDA, PROUDLY wants to do the same thing.
You can say i don't have modal bla bla, but i'ts okay, I am now in a good mood and all the sadness i had before this already puff!, hilang. Bak kata eeqbal, "Toksah sedih, everything will be okay".
and since i dont have anything to share, cakap about my teddy bear pun, apa salah nya. *wink*

okay the name of my cutie-pie-o is CUFFIE. cuffie stands for emmmm, coffee? (haha!) but after a bit of changing here and there, tukar sana, tukar sini, jadi lah cuffie.

oh well, i don't have any clue why the heck i named him cuffie btw. maybe it sounds so comel momel , and and and and i like to drink coffee! (though x ada kaitan, who cares la kan. hehe). so, cuffie coffee, coffee cuffie! *gedik face* hehe.
(more information : cuffie itu lelaki).
Okay, nak dimulakan cerita, on one sunday evening, faliq, diha, justin , syafeq and i went to pavilion for jalan2 right away after balik from this one majlis pertunangan. (so basically, we went there with baju kurung , baju melayu and all la) then, something "EXTREMELY BAD" happened;

Ada one fabulous girl, named, fieda suddenly merajuk (i have my own reason why i merajuk *wink*) and she said "i want a tedyy bear, THAT teddy bear" *pointing at this cotton machine where you have to fill in the empty teddy-bear's body with the cottons* .

(well, merajuk is my kind of thing, but the result : tak ada siapa nak pujuk, WHY PEOPLE? WHYYYY? :( )
At first, everyone was like,
"jom makan, lapar la", "eh, mana justin? hilang dah?". (konon konon tak dengar apa i cakap or they were borned deaf ).
So, terpaksa la move on to the next stage : Buat buat moody, konon konon nak demam, and jalan perlahan. (it is so hard to attract people's attention kan.)

tapi the result : (syafeq) you nak teddy bear yang mana? HAHAHAHAAHAHAH !

so here are the pictures: (siap ada birth certificate lagi, kalah teddy bear "Ada-lah-orang-tu" woot woot! ) ;)





(since i don't have a picture of his birth certificate, details macam ni pun jadi la)

Name : Cuffie
Birthdate : 19/4/2008
Height : 31 cm
Weight : 116 g
Gender : Male
Fur colour : light brown
Eyes colour : dark brown
Bear family : Rydza

The baju is a bit "yo-yo-yo-yo-whats-up", (oh well, i should blame *him for this) tapi tak apa, CUFFIE HANDSOME.

and oh, cuffie pun ada kawan, but the kawan is not as handsome as him. The name is Yayish. (entah la apa makna nya). it belongs to diha and faliq.


So, the right one is my baby baby and the left one is my anak saudara.

dua dua pun jadi macam ni nanti : "yo yo yo ~" (*sigh* :( )

THE END,,,

So not

I wish i can have everything i want. i wish i was borned as a girl who doesn't know how to love. Love is such a problem for me. Love leads me to think negatively, act stupidly, speak and yell like a crazy wacko person, and and yea, i dont want to love anymore. ;(
I'm sicked and tired with all the sweet promises and hopes. all the "yada yada bla bla, i love u till death bla bla" are all bullshitsss.
Mungkin im in pms or wtv, and that's (maybe) one of the reasons why im using the bad words, tapi biar lah. as long as i can release everything ,&&&& i feel good !

okay, tonight everyone's going to celebrate merdeka. and the "bf" of mine pernah told me that he'll be in his apartment and he'll not going to celebrate and "paarrtaaaay-hu-ha-hu-ha" with his friends dekat sana. and i said "fine, tak apa. i'll do the same thing. i won't go out and i'll be in my room, chatting with you". so okay, the deal is on. I canceled all the plans, all the "snapping-pictures-appointments" with my friends, and yes yes yes yes i am absolutely free tonight!
Tapi sedihhhhhhhhhhhhnya bila he called, he said he's with his friends and they are like macam tengah siap siap to a party (a-konon-kononnya-merdeka-party-where-all-the-Malaysian-people-in
-Melbourne-gathered-and-merdeka!-merdeka!-merdeka!) lah sangat~ So, mestila i was pissed off gila gila. Dahla i dah cancel everything and now the so called "chatting-date" pun cancel. ;(

Everything pun went wrong lately. SEMUA LAIN! though lynn,aidil and all the gfs said that i am tough bla bla, handling with this long distance relationship, tapi for me, I DON'T THINK SO.
The promises he made, all the sweety-weety talk, semua semua tu,... *sigh*

Tapi tak apa, maybe ada hikmah. Maybe i need to be more patient, act like there's nothing happen, macam buat bodoh bodoh je. kan? it is better that way, i guess. Lagipun i have test this tuesday. So, terpaksa lah fill in the time yang sepatutnya "chatting-date" tu , to "studying-date".
(Itu pun if ada mood nak study) hehe.


and oh oh, next week is my birthday people! and just now my petbrother, ezzad emir called, and he asked me to go to kl. tapi i haven't decide yet. ye la kan, mana tahu lynn, aidil, cikdia, sumai and amal come out with an idea nak buat suprise? who knows kan? (so, id rather stay here tunggu suprise. if tak ada, buka puasa ramai2 pun NO HAL lah kawan!) hehe. and yea, he said he wants to treat me like a princess bla bla bla with a birthday party lagi! (*picturing me in a dress, ada lots of food, cakes * ) &&& so suddenly all the sadness hilang. ;)
aaaah, i feel alot more better dah.


so yea, happy merdeka day people!


and and and,
to iylia and enzo :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I LOVE U TO BITS bebeh!

A very stressful moody day.

here i go again, typing crap.*sigh* today's 29th august and everyone is back to their hometown or wherever they wanted to go to celebrate the upcoming independence day. as for me, i am stuck in my room, staring at the laptop's screen since pagi until malam.
by looking at the title itself i bet u know that im not in a good mood. yes, i am moody, stress, sad, mad and i feel like screaming out loud, but i cant. or else people will call me "Crazy wacko fieda, dah la clumsy gila pulak tu". But now , i already find a way to release all of those negative feeling, hehe by typing crap in my blog la kan. but i dont expect people to read it as it is full with sampah. hmmph~*angry face*

so these are the reasons why im not in a good mood ;


1st reason :

semua orang balik! ! semua org pun balik! at first i did think of going back tapi after chatting with a boyfriend of mine, i suddenly changed my mind.well, i thought i can spend more time with him by chatting and webcam-ming trough msn. tapi he didnt go online that often these days. so, harapan for him to online is tipis. jadi mula lah cari some other way and the way nya is balik to kl and celebrate merdeka there. tapi the last minutes changing plan ni x jadi sebab all of my friends already went back pagi tadi and the one who left pun nak balik with a girlfriend. tak kan la nak kacau. so i am now stress out because i dont want to spend my holidays alone in my room and do nothing. okay if nak study tu boleh, tapi still i want to enjoy the holidays! students need holidays okay, even smart people pun enjoy their holidays ( baca buku ke, pergi zoo, maybe) i appreciate all the concern from my friends sebab they keep on asking me " nak balik ke tak? dont tell me u're going to be here alone?. nak tumpang? nak stay at my condo? bla bla bla" seeeeeee, i have lots of nice-kind-hearted friend! tapi i was absolutely stupid and i wasnt thinking well. (and now i feel like pulling my hair sampai botak) . i did msg my boyfriend but the response is not what i expected. :(


2nd reason :

i skipped structured programming lab just now sebab SEMUA BALIK. so, if i go to the lab, definitely la i'll be alone. plus, i hate the lab tutor for my sp lab (friday je, the lab tutor on monday is okay-okay-je ) last last friday, i was completely clueless on what i should do so i went to lee's place. tried to copy his (tapi indirectly nya belajar sambil meniru la) the lab tutor suddenly appeared behind my back out of nowhere and he said " what are you doing here? go back to your place *with konon kononnya macho + angry face* . i freaked out, so i went back to my place and yet still clueless nk type apa in that blank devc++. benci aku dekat mamat tuh!
tapi thats not the main reason. kan i skipped the lab just now, i thought there will be no homework or assignments sebab x ramai yang pergi. but tadi amal suddenly ckp "eh, kito keno ata lab sp activity esok before 8pm" WTF ? wtf ? so yea, stressful day kan?


3rd reason :

semua balik semua balik! semua orang balik! ; (


4th reason :

what do you feel when someone you love is far far far away from you? and what do you feel when he/she didn't show you that he/she cares about you? sedih? that's what i feel. okay, maybe he's busy or he is still trying to settle things down over there, tapi at least show me that he cares,still. ok look, im not complaining sebab i already get use to it and yea, that is his style. tapi bila dah lama2, u'll be wondering whether he still loves you or not. the so called "emotional-feeling" will lead you to think negatively. ladies, i bet you know and understand about what im trying to say here. fellas, if u think im wrong, SCREW you. SUSAH LA NAK FAHAM LELAKI. they say something, but they meant something else.
so the bottom line here is, i miss my boyfriend and he didn't even send me a single message :(
dah la semua balik, im alone, and i thought if dia msg, i wont be sedih sedih lagi. tapi now,...
*speechless*


5th reason :

semua balik semua balik! semua orang balik! ; (