A very stressful moody day.

here i go again, typing crap.*sigh* today's 29th august and everyone is back to their hometown or wherever they wanted to go to celebrate the upcoming independence day. as for me, i am stuck in my room, staring at the laptop's screen since pagi until malam.
by looking at the title itself i bet u know that im not in a good mood. yes, i am moody, stress, sad, mad and i feel like screaming out loud, but i cant. or else people will call me "Crazy wacko fieda, dah la clumsy gila pulak tu". But now , i already find a way to release all of those negative feeling, hehe by typing crap in my blog la kan. but i dont expect people to read it as it is full with sampah. hmmph~*angry face*

so these are the reasons why im not in a good mood ;


1st reason :

semua orang balik! ! semua org pun balik! at first i did think of going back tapi after chatting with a boyfriend of mine, i suddenly changed my mind.well, i thought i can spend more time with him by chatting and webcam-ming trough msn. tapi he didnt go online that often these days. so, harapan for him to online is tipis. jadi mula lah cari some other way and the way nya is balik to kl and celebrate merdeka there. tapi the last minutes changing plan ni x jadi sebab all of my friends already went back pagi tadi and the one who left pun nak balik with a girlfriend. tak kan la nak kacau. so i am now stress out because i dont want to spend my holidays alone in my room and do nothing. okay if nak study tu boleh, tapi still i want to enjoy the holidays! students need holidays okay, even smart people pun enjoy their holidays ( baca buku ke, pergi zoo, maybe) i appreciate all the concern from my friends sebab they keep on asking me " nak balik ke tak? dont tell me u're going to be here alone?. nak tumpang? nak stay at my condo? bla bla bla" seeeeeee, i have lots of nice-kind-hearted friend! tapi i was absolutely stupid and i wasnt thinking well. (and now i feel like pulling my hair sampai botak) . i did msg my boyfriend but the response is not what i expected. :(


2nd reason :

i skipped structured programming lab just now sebab SEMUA BALIK. so, if i go to the lab, definitely la i'll be alone. plus, i hate the lab tutor for my sp lab (friday je, the lab tutor on monday is okay-okay-je ) last last friday, i was completely clueless on what i should do so i went to lee's place. tried to copy his (tapi indirectly nya belajar sambil meniru la) the lab tutor suddenly appeared behind my back out of nowhere and he said " what are you doing here? go back to your place *with konon kononnya macho + angry face* . i freaked out, so i went back to my place and yet still clueless nk type apa in that blank devc++. benci aku dekat mamat tuh!
tapi thats not the main reason. kan i skipped the lab just now, i thought there will be no homework or assignments sebab x ramai yang pergi. but tadi amal suddenly ckp "eh, kito keno ata lab sp activity esok before 8pm" WTF ? wtf ? so yea, stressful day kan?


3rd reason :

semua balik semua balik! semua orang balik! ; (


4th reason :

what do you feel when someone you love is far far far away from you? and what do you feel when he/she didn't show you that he/she cares about you? sedih? that's what i feel. okay, maybe he's busy or he is still trying to settle things down over there, tapi at least show me that he cares,still. ok look, im not complaining sebab i already get use to it and yea, that is his style. tapi bila dah lama2, u'll be wondering whether he still loves you or not. the so called "emotional-feeling" will lead you to think negatively. ladies, i bet you know and understand about what im trying to say here. fellas, if u think im wrong, SCREW you. SUSAH LA NAK FAHAM LELAKI. they say something, but they meant something else.
so the bottom line here is, i miss my boyfriend and he didn't even send me a single message :(
dah la semua balik, im alone, and i thought if dia msg, i wont be sedih sedih lagi. tapi now,...
*speechless*


5th reason :

semua balik semua balik! semua orang balik! ; (