Sayonara

i always thought friendship is 'forever'.

but tonight,
I've lost my close friend who used to be

my coke when i am thirsty,
a pillow when i am sad
and
a murtabak-Maggi when i am hungry.

He was such a great friend, a friend who never let me to wear a frown.
And i love him.

But as time flies by, i don't think i know him anymore. He'd changed a lot and he does not give a damn care about me , anymore.
No more cokes until 3 in the morning, no more murtabak-Maggi and of course, no more sharing secrets and laughter.

confuse?
yes, i am.

sad ?
definitely.

But life is about moving on, isn't it ? I have my boyfriend, and my mighty-superwomen who never tired to keep on supporting me, and of course being my counselor.
And so for now, my formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can.

I'm moving onnnnnnnnnn bebeh !

Kau yang punya

i miss you, baby

Long distance, waiting, hoping and wishing ;
these words match me perfectly.

being far away from your loved one is not something most of us
have to face.

Sometimes you dream of having your own private jet so
that you can meet your beloved one, immediately, any time.

Sometimes you wish to have your own time machine and so you can fast forward
the time to when you are at the airport, waiting for your partner's arrival.

Sometimes you ask yourselves why the hell you're still here and not pursuing
your studies with him/her.

Sometimes you wonder how you wish to be a superhero character and fly to
your partner's place.

Sometimes you hope for a miracle to happen.

Sometimes you wonder how he/she is doing over there.

Sometimes you wonder will he/she cheats on you.

but MOST OF THE TIME,

you wish him/her to be alright
because you want what's best for him/her.

Now i am back in utp, and the boyfriend of mine is going back to Melbourne
soon.
and the sad part is ;
he doesn't know when he will come back again. oh great~

i had the happiest 2 weeks of my life with him during the holidays
and for godsake, why why why why he has to go back that early. It's not that
i love to whine, i should be grateful that he came back but still,

I WANT TO BE WITH HIM 24/7 :(

yet i know,
all the hopes and wishes won't come to me, directly

because this is life.

and LIFE IS NOT WHAT YOU SEE IN FILM, LIFE IS MUCH HARDER.

and this one little part of my life is called, sadness.

It starts with the letter H

TODAY IS THE DAY.
yes, it is D day.
The result is out and i haven't check mine.


NOT YET.


I want to skip that part as i am now not in a mood of talking about it. It makes my heart crushes apart and i feel like punching someone's face and kicking butts. Yes, it's true.
BTW, lynn's already back in UTP. Settling stuffs, being a facilitator, and i bet she has lots of new friends (The Rakan Masjids) and i can feel that she's getting along very very well with them.
-I know you are, girl. *peace* hehe -


Talking about holidays, I HAD BLAST OF TIME WITH MY BABY. After 6 months of not seeing each other, we felt a little bit awkward at first. You know, do not know where to start, what to talk, a little bit of shy-shy-kucing but what the hell, we went to lots of places during the holidays and we superbly enjoyed each moments we had.

I wish i could upload all the pictures, but there are too many to upload.
So girlfriends, please make yourselves free next week and so we can share all the stories we had, including the pictures ya (: