Jaga Hati

QUESTION : Can you satisfy every single person around you? satisfy them in term of "jaga hati" or make them feel comfortable whenever they're around you ?

Every person has different attitude and personality. and it is hard for me to predict what's on their mind and so how can i satisfy them ?
if i don't, I'll get into a serious trouble as they will absolutely ignore me later on. kan ?

yes, my life is complicated. Even this small issue matters me. One said to me,
"Fieda, be tough. You're a tough girl, remember ? You've been through a lot; family, relationship,etc. "

If i think it twice, i keep on questioning myself, " am i that tough ? "
If I am "tough" as what the person told me, why the hell i can't handle this stupid matter easily ?

sedih la.

in this case;
Why la "this-certain-people" cant just accept me the way i am. i love to laugh out loud, i am a crazy-wacko-ass whenever i lepak, and i absolutely love being me. Jatuh kerusi bila gelak, terhantuk sana sini, SPELL MY NAME, that's me. yes.
How on earth i want to "convert" myself to be some other person as i enjoy this clumsy-ness of mine. (tapi tak ada la selalu)

I wish i could say this to that "particular-person" la kan, but the fact that i want to "jaga hati", and so all i can do is to keep silent.

Tapi tak kisah la,

I HAVE MY SUPERGIRLFRIENDS, and they love me the way i am.
Thank you, sayang.

okay, word of the day is "bakpo".

Bakpo kito keno study ? Tokleh ko kito belajar sapa spm pahtu nikoh ? Bakpo kito dok nikoh denge ore kayo hok semak, ado keto sport, rumoh banglo 3 tikat.
Pahtu boleh shopping gapo gapo jah hok kito nok. Nok gi mano mano pun boleh sebab dio kayo , so kito boleh beli private jet then suko hati nok gi mano. Pahtu ado chef, gardener, ado maid . sedak deh kalu gitu ?

MEME DOHHHH.


merapu, yes i know. Im bored ;(

feel like punching one's face
life's getting more complicated than ever !
WHY WHY WHY it has to go this wayyyy ?! ergh !
nak punch punch, kick kick, tomoi and karate sikit
boleh tak kalau nak macam tu?
boleh lah deh?
ahh!
nok jugoook!
;(

Vday

Happy valentines Day, people !

Though last night I've been fooled by Ermie who said his birthday is today then it turns out that it was basically one of his lame-prank-joke, it does not stop me from wishing all of you a very happy valentines day.

If some say, "we can't celebrate valentines, fieda."
well, I'll reply,
"Screw that! it is not that i am celebrating it. Valentines is just a day that we can express how deep is your love towards your friends or parents. It does not mean we have to hang out or spend our time with our love one.
Valentines is about love, love to our parents, friends and even to our pets! "
(ehe, don't forget to visit my pet at pet society ya, and for those who still do not have facebook, sign up ! and please please please make your own pet in pet society. hehe, been addicted to that application since ever! )

So friends,

i love all of you,
YES, ALL OF YOU
i love you no matter what you all did to me,
all the bahan-membahan-drop-mendrop are like my panties i wear everyday
because i never get tired with all of those,
oh friends, u are my lemak, jantung, hati ku.
aduh! sangat bahagia ada kamu semua.

Enough is enough

i had it enough.
you better stop.













stop from whatever you're doing towards me now.
it hurts.

kau hancurkan hati ku,
hancurkan lagi,
kau hancurkan hati ku,
untuk melihat mu,
kau terangi jiwa ku,
kau redupkan lagi.
dan kau hancurkan hati ku,
untuk melihat mu

Sayonara

i always thought friendship is 'forever'.

but tonight,
I've lost my close friend who used to be

my coke when i am thirsty,
a pillow when i am sad
and
a murtabak-Maggi when i am hungry.

He was such a great friend, a friend who never let me to wear a frown.
And i love him.

But as time flies by, i don't think i know him anymore. He'd changed a lot and he does not give a damn care about me , anymore.
No more cokes until 3 in the morning, no more murtabak-Maggi and of course, no more sharing secrets and laughter.

confuse?
yes, i am.

sad ?
definitely.

But life is about moving on, isn't it ? I have my boyfriend, and my mighty-superwomen who never tired to keep on supporting me, and of course being my counselor.
And so for now, my formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can.

I'm moving onnnnnnnnnn bebeh !