Kau yang punya

i miss you, baby

Long distance, waiting, hoping and wishing ;
these words match me perfectly.

being far away from your loved one is not something most of us
have to face.

Sometimes you dream of having your own private jet so
that you can meet your beloved one, immediately, any time.

Sometimes you wish to have your own time machine and so you can fast forward
the time to when you are at the airport, waiting for your partner's arrival.

Sometimes you ask yourselves why the hell you're still here and not pursuing
your studies with him/her.

Sometimes you wonder how you wish to be a superhero character and fly to
your partner's place.

Sometimes you hope for a miracle to happen.

Sometimes you wonder how he/she is doing over there.

Sometimes you wonder will he/she cheats on you.

but MOST OF THE TIME,

you wish him/her to be alright
because you want what's best for him/her.

Now i am back in utp, and the boyfriend of mine is going back to Melbourne
soon.
and the sad part is ;
he doesn't know when he will come back again. oh great~

i had the happiest 2 weeks of my life with him during the holidays
and for godsake, why why why why he has to go back that early. It's not that
i love to whine, i should be grateful that he came back but still,

I WANT TO BE WITH HIM 24/7 :(

yet i know,
all the hopes and wishes won't come to me, directly

because this is life.

and LIFE IS NOT WHAT YOU SEE IN FILM, LIFE IS MUCH HARDER.

and this one little part of my life is called, sadness.

It starts with the letter H

TODAY IS THE DAY.
yes, it is D day.
The result is out and i haven't check mine.


NOT YET.


I want to skip that part as i am now not in a mood of talking about it. It makes my heart crushes apart and i feel like punching someone's face and kicking butts. Yes, it's true.
BTW, lynn's already back in UTP. Settling stuffs, being a facilitator, and i bet she has lots of new friends (The Rakan Masjids) and i can feel that she's getting along very very well with them.
-I know you are, girl. *peace* hehe -


Talking about holidays, I HAD BLAST OF TIME WITH MY BABY. After 6 months of not seeing each other, we felt a little bit awkward at first. You know, do not know where to start, what to talk, a little bit of shy-shy-kucing but what the hell, we went to lots of places during the holidays and we superbly enjoyed each moments we had.

I wish i could upload all the pictures, but there are too many to upload.
So girlfriends, please make yourselves free next week and so we can share all the stories we had, including the pictures ya (:

On the bed, with a pillow on my face. i try to open my eyes, but the light is too bright. i can't see a thing. Then, i hear his voice , talking to his parents.
Such a happy family they are. How i wish i could be in this family ; hearing the laughter, the jokes.
God dammit,
I will do anything , YES ANYTHING just for the sake of switching my family to this family.
He's such one lucky fella who has such a perfect family,

A perfect life, i would say.

i miss this :(

Respect you, nomore

Hello people.

So I am now in the semester break holiday. wohoo!

Oh well, that “wohoo” only bertahan for one day.

I admit at first I was all excited to enjoy the holidays but since I am now stuck in this holy place of Kelantan, I suddenly wish that I could go back to UTP. It’s not that I hate this place, but every time I am back in here, I will face a lot of problems that sometimes can lead me to be a psycho woman!

To make it more specific, the major problem that I am facing now is;

I have these 2 Barbie dolls which they think they are pretty, but they’re not. They were born to make other people such as their step-relatives to suffer. They love to spread bad rumors about other people too! They like to gossip, create stories and very talented in destroying other’s trust towards you.

To conclude all of those, they are very purrrr-fect.

Perfect in DESTROYING PEOPLE’S LIFE

The Barbie dolls are not in the family because they do not have any relation with me, but they do have relation with my stepsiblings. Weird enough?
I do not want to mention more details about them as I am afraid the private investigator will read this blog and report it to my dad.

UH OH, HELLO PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR.

BUZZ OFF, WILL YOU?

Okay, as what I have mentioned before, the BD (Barbie dolls) are very good in creating stories, especially fake stories. So, one day they created this one HOT story about me.

The title: “fieda kutuk you (sister) and your mom gila gila dekat us”.

gila bodoh, i know.

And oops, there are a lot of subtitles to that.
Interesting enough?

So, when the sister heard about this, (not only about that la, the BD tambah gula garam sikit to make one hot story) she called my dad and asked my dad to watch out and take a good care of me because the Barbie dolls told her, ‘Fieda is such a slut’.
(Lebih kurang macam tu la tapi dgn panjang lebar)

WORDS TO THE BDs :
look yourselves at the mirror first before saying someone else a slut. Pleaseee please pretty please?
Oh ouh! Or you don’t have enough money to buy one? Kasihannya :(

Luckily daddy did not believe all the bullshits and that made the sister became very mad. Mad at him, and of course, HELL MAD at me.
At first, I was sad because she is angry at me on something that I did not do. But when I know about the things that she said to my dad about me, I changed my mind from being sad to –I-HATE-U-TOO-

The words she said to me are totally unforgivable. If she thinks she’s my sister, she should have believed me even though we are not from the same mother. But the fact that she’s still a sister to me, she should not believe to what the Barbie Dolls told her. KAN?

Imagine this, if you know your sister so well, you won’t buy words from someone else. You will trust her unless you have prove ke, evidence ke that she is such a slut and love to condemn you.

And tak ke pelik, in my case la kan, She knows how much I hate the Barbie dolls , and tak ke bodoh aku nak pergi kutuk dia, cerita about her and the step mom dekat the Barbie dolls . tak ada masa. I have lots of better things to do. *wink*

Well,

She has brain, she got the look, but

Sorry, I respected her NOMORE.

And now, this thing is such a big issue in the family.

Haih~

DUNIA DUNIAA,, APA NAK JADI.

But whatever it is,

What the fuck is wrong with the Barbie Dolls?
Don’t they have something else to do besides creating fake stories about other people?

kasihan, i should hire a teacher ke ustazah ke to teach them how to respect others and how to be a nice girl. kan?

Curse me, please?

life is unfair. yes it is.

even though u have worked your ass off completing certain job, at the end you ended up getting a result that u did not expected.

FRUSTRATED?

of course.

i wonder how the "people" who did not work that hard (ye la, compared to others yang worked their ass off) get a better result or achieve something that is beyond their expectations.

do they have the lucky-charm-curse?

if they do, I WANT IT AS WELLLLLLLLLLL ! !


tolonglah bagi ! :(



anyways, that is not my point here.
the point is, again;

LIFE IS UNFAIR.


so the quote of the month is :

life is a dick, when it gets hard. fuck it je lah kan ! !


and
oh oh oh! btw,
i would like to say thank you to my dearest baby darling lynn for being my dge project partner.

YOU ROCK ,GIRL !

( eventhough u kecik, but u still rocked my sock! )

although we did not have enough time for our beauty sleep these past few days, but i know we had so much fun playing with the wires and the ICs (lah sangat~ )
but the one thing i know, u enjoyed so much making fun of me kan?
that "FARIDAH" name u called me is sooooooooo ZAMAN PAK KADOK OKAY.
tapi whatever lah kan, at least we managed to finish it up and the bloody circuit displayed the fucking output until 18 ! kira berjaya lah tu. hehe ;)

and boyfriend i cakap, we have to work harder ! so next time, kita work harder lah ye ;)

i love you kecik kontot !
here is something i have for you.

wires, ICs, LED ..etc are the heart of ee engineers now,
we sat in a lab till we got hungry and we feel like eating a cow,
but it didnt matter as we are HOT and we know people will say "wow",
because the circuit we made is sooooooo COOL KAW KAW!

the heart , the soul (tapi now dah tak kot)

okay, NEXT !

final examinations :(
LIFE IS UNFAIR BETUL.

The way i celebrate the day

HOLLA BACK PEOPLE!

ouh well, i know i did not update my blog for a quite long time. it's not i don't have anything interesting to share, i tell you, i HAVE A LOT to share, but the fact that i am hell busy with my works, so tak dapat la nak selesaikan hajat meng-update my blog.

assignments, projects, tests, quizzes, dance practices are killing me. but the genious brain of mine already diset kan to handle all of those with a big SMILEEEE.

OUH, BEFORE I GO ON,
i would like to say sorry to all my so called "die-hard-blog-fan" for not updating my blog.


i know you MISS me.



kan?



HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.



ok ok, cutttttttttttt the crap people!


Actually i want to share about the performances me and my group member had last weekend and yesterday. but yea, i notice that everyone posted something about their raya celebration and it's not fair for me if i didn't share anything about my raya celebration kan?
i have lots lots lots of photos and i'm so proud to say that i managed to collect duit raya lagi banyak compared to last year.

My lil brother did ask me ,
"Kak, why the hell you got lagi banyak duit raya than me?"

and i replied back,
"Because i used the sponsored barang from my friends to make me look lawa and people like to give money to lawa people ;) "


So here, i give you ONE of my TIPSSSSS, (banyak lagi sebenarnya) to get duit raya lebih during raya.



BE LAWA AS LAWA AS POSSIBLE.

(haha, sounds so pelik. but anyways,)



BE LAWA!



oh ya, let me explain more about the "sponsored barang" ;

sponsored barang are the things that i borrowed from my friends since my parents said they didn't buy me any baju raya or necklace, or braceletes or whatever stuff that i want for raya la kan. (Sedih kan? )
So, as a back up plan, i borrowed my friend's stuffs
(i wont mention about what barang i borrowed as i have this feeling of "segan" and if i tell pun, i have to kill you later on. sorry ya peminat. )


so, itu lah dia. "BE LAWA" are the words of the day ye.


Okay next, THE BAJU RAYA.

at first, the thought of not having baju raya scared my ass off. ye la kan, amal kept on telling her sister to buy her this baju la that baju la and lynn pulak went to ipoh to buy her baju raya.
Eveyone has their own baju raya! hmmph~


But when i got back to my hometown,




YIPPIEE YIPPIE YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEE,



The syg syg syg brother of mine bought baju raya for me.
and of course la, i LOOK PRETTY.

( dah kata nak duit lebih, apa dia words of the day tadi, peminat? )



BE LAWA!




Lupa pulak, the boyfriend of mine di melbourne didn't come back for raya. Kesian dia.

"sorry bie, next raya we celebrate together okay? ill masak u kuzi ? ;) "



so here are the pictures of my raya celebration. ;)

the sygness (besties, friends and cousins)

and i have difficulties of uploading some of the pictures as the person in the picture scares the consequences if i upload the picture will affect his/her life. (sound like it's a big deal to him/her kan?) ouh well, tak apa lah.

but anyways, who cares. my dad taught me to respect others, so yes, that's what i do now. ;)

HAPPY HARI RAYA YA PEOPLE!