On the bed, with a pillow on my face. i try to open my eyes, but the light is too bright. i can't see a thing. Then, i hear his voice , talking to his parents.
Such a happy family they are. How i wish i could be in this family ; hearing the laughter, the jokes.
God dammit,
I will do anything , YES ANYTHING just for the sake of switching my family to this family.
He's such one lucky fella who has such a perfect family,

A perfect life, i would say.

i miss this :(

Respect you, nomore

Hello people.

So I am now in the semester break holiday. wohoo!

Oh well, that “wohoo” only bertahan for one day.

I admit at first I was all excited to enjoy the holidays but since I am now stuck in this holy place of Kelantan, I suddenly wish that I could go back to UTP. It’s not that I hate this place, but every time I am back in here, I will face a lot of problems that sometimes can lead me to be a psycho woman!

To make it more specific, the major problem that I am facing now is;

I have these 2 Barbie dolls which they think they are pretty, but they’re not. They were born to make other people such as their step-relatives to suffer. They love to spread bad rumors about other people too! They like to gossip, create stories and very talented in destroying other’s trust towards you.

To conclude all of those, they are very purrrr-fect.

Perfect in DESTROYING PEOPLE’S LIFE

The Barbie dolls are not in the family because they do not have any relation with me, but they do have relation with my stepsiblings. Weird enough?
I do not want to mention more details about them as I am afraid the private investigator will read this blog and report it to my dad.

UH OH, HELLO PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR.

BUZZ OFF, WILL YOU?

Okay, as what I have mentioned before, the BD (Barbie dolls) are very good in creating stories, especially fake stories. So, one day they created this one HOT story about me.

The title: “fieda kutuk you (sister) and your mom gila gila dekat us”.

gila bodoh, i know.

And oops, there are a lot of subtitles to that.
Interesting enough?

So, when the sister heard about this, (not only about that la, the BD tambah gula garam sikit to make one hot story) she called my dad and asked my dad to watch out and take a good care of me because the Barbie dolls told her, ‘Fieda is such a slut’.
(Lebih kurang macam tu la tapi dgn panjang lebar)

WORDS TO THE BDs :
look yourselves at the mirror first before saying someone else a slut. Pleaseee please pretty please?
Oh ouh! Or you don’t have enough money to buy one? Kasihannya :(

Luckily daddy did not believe all the bullshits and that made the sister became very mad. Mad at him, and of course, HELL MAD at me.
At first, I was sad because she is angry at me on something that I did not do. But when I know about the things that she said to my dad about me, I changed my mind from being sad to –I-HATE-U-TOO-

The words she said to me are totally unforgivable. If she thinks she’s my sister, she should have believed me even though we are not from the same mother. But the fact that she’s still a sister to me, she should not believe to what the Barbie Dolls told her. KAN?

Imagine this, if you know your sister so well, you won’t buy words from someone else. You will trust her unless you have prove ke, evidence ke that she is such a slut and love to condemn you.

And tak ke pelik, in my case la kan, She knows how much I hate the Barbie dolls , and tak ke bodoh aku nak pergi kutuk dia, cerita about her and the step mom dekat the Barbie dolls . tak ada masa. I have lots of better things to do. *wink*

Well,

She has brain, she got the look, but

Sorry, I respected her NOMORE.

And now, this thing is such a big issue in the family.

Haih~

DUNIA DUNIAA,, APA NAK JADI.

But whatever it is,

What the fuck is wrong with the Barbie Dolls?
Don’t they have something else to do besides creating fake stories about other people?

kasihan, i should hire a teacher ke ustazah ke to teach them how to respect others and how to be a nice girl. kan?

Curse me, please?

life is unfair. yes it is.

even though u have worked your ass off completing certain job, at the end you ended up getting a result that u did not expected.

FRUSTRATED?

of course.

i wonder how the "people" who did not work that hard (ye la, compared to others yang worked their ass off) get a better result or achieve something that is beyond their expectations.

do they have the lucky-charm-curse?

if they do, I WANT IT AS WELLLLLLLLLLL ! !


tolonglah bagi ! :(



anyways, that is not my point here.
the point is, again;

LIFE IS UNFAIR.


so the quote of the month is :

life is a dick, when it gets hard. fuck it je lah kan ! !


and
oh oh oh! btw,
i would like to say thank you to my dearest baby darling lynn for being my dge project partner.

YOU ROCK ,GIRL !

( eventhough u kecik, but u still rocked my sock! )

although we did not have enough time for our beauty sleep these past few days, but i know we had so much fun playing with the wires and the ICs (lah sangat~ )
but the one thing i know, u enjoyed so much making fun of me kan?
that "FARIDAH" name u called me is sooooooooo ZAMAN PAK KADOK OKAY.
tapi whatever lah kan, at least we managed to finish it up and the bloody circuit displayed the fucking output until 18 ! kira berjaya lah tu. hehe ;)

and boyfriend i cakap, we have to work harder ! so next time, kita work harder lah ye ;)

i love you kecik kontot !
here is something i have for you.

wires, ICs, LED ..etc are the heart of ee engineers now,
we sat in a lab till we got hungry and we feel like eating a cow,
but it didnt matter as we are HOT and we know people will say "wow",
because the circuit we made is sooooooo COOL KAW KAW!

the heart , the soul (tapi now dah tak kot)

okay, NEXT !

final examinations :(
LIFE IS UNFAIR BETUL.

The way i celebrate the day

HOLLA BACK PEOPLE!

ouh well, i know i did not update my blog for a quite long time. it's not i don't have anything interesting to share, i tell you, i HAVE A LOT to share, but the fact that i am hell busy with my works, so tak dapat la nak selesaikan hajat meng-update my blog.

assignments, projects, tests, quizzes, dance practices are killing me. but the genious brain of mine already diset kan to handle all of those with a big SMILEEEE.

OUH, BEFORE I GO ON,
i would like to say sorry to all my so called "die-hard-blog-fan" for not updating my blog.


i know you MISS me.



kan?



HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.



ok ok, cutttttttttttt the crap people!


Actually i want to share about the performances me and my group member had last weekend and yesterday. but yea, i notice that everyone posted something about their raya celebration and it's not fair for me if i didn't share anything about my raya celebration kan?
i have lots lots lots of photos and i'm so proud to say that i managed to collect duit raya lagi banyak compared to last year.

My lil brother did ask me ,
"Kak, why the hell you got lagi banyak duit raya than me?"

and i replied back,
"Because i used the sponsored barang from my friends to make me look lawa and people like to give money to lawa people ;) "


So here, i give you ONE of my TIPSSSSS, (banyak lagi sebenarnya) to get duit raya lebih during raya.



BE LAWA AS LAWA AS POSSIBLE.

(haha, sounds so pelik. but anyways,)



BE LAWA!



oh ya, let me explain more about the "sponsored barang" ;

sponsored barang are the things that i borrowed from my friends since my parents said they didn't buy me any baju raya or necklace, or braceletes or whatever stuff that i want for raya la kan. (Sedih kan? )
So, as a back up plan, i borrowed my friend's stuffs
(i wont mention about what barang i borrowed as i have this feeling of "segan" and if i tell pun, i have to kill you later on. sorry ya peminat. )


so, itu lah dia. "BE LAWA" are the words of the day ye.


Okay next, THE BAJU RAYA.

at first, the thought of not having baju raya scared my ass off. ye la kan, amal kept on telling her sister to buy her this baju la that baju la and lynn pulak went to ipoh to buy her baju raya.
Eveyone has their own baju raya! hmmph~


But when i got back to my hometown,




YIPPIEE YIPPIE YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEE,



The syg syg syg brother of mine bought baju raya for me.
and of course la, i LOOK PRETTY.

( dah kata nak duit lebih, apa dia words of the day tadi, peminat? )



BE LAWA!




Lupa pulak, the boyfriend of mine di melbourne didn't come back for raya. Kesian dia.

"sorry bie, next raya we celebrate together okay? ill masak u kuzi ? ;) "



so here are the pictures of my raya celebration. ;)

the sygness (besties, friends and cousins)

and i have difficulties of uploading some of the pictures as the person in the picture scares the consequences if i upload the picture will affect his/her life. (sound like it's a big deal to him/her kan?) ouh well, tak apa lah.

but anyways, who cares. my dad taught me to respect others, so yes, that's what i do now. ;)

HAPPY HARI RAYA YA PEOPLE!

introducing : STAR D

Star d, is a new dance group in UTP. it is a dance group that perform variety type of dances which include modern, hip hop, salsa, bollywood, traditional, bla bla bla you name it.

definition/elaboration :

star d - (study) as a student, we have to study. although we have passion in dancing, yet we still need to focus on our studies because future is important and without it we won't shine. -is

star d - Star dancers . the members have their own experiences in dancing (traditional, modern, cheerleading) so, the combinations of them will lead to an awesome group - **

at first, we did think of how the rakan masjid will react when they find out about this group. but "WHATEVER", we don't give a damn as long as we don't kacau them. hmmph~
The steps, and the dance routines are all choreographed by the team members. and yes, we don't have limits. we dance , move and shake like we own the stage ;)
-that's what i like about this group.

BTW,
i would like to say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to my precious friends for supporting me in joining the group. though i know i'll sacrifice a lot of times from hanging out with you guys, but the fact that the support is "ADA UHM!" i nak terima kasih banyak2. hehe
the 12 of you rock my sock bebeh!

THE UPCOMING PERFORMANCES :

I) ?? dinner -11th october 2008 ( lupa la dinner apa)
II) music fest -18th october 2008

THE MEMBERS :

*) iskandar, pae and uya ( 3rd year 1st sem )
*) firin, mar, esa'k ( 2nd year 2nd sem )
*) iskandar, capik, hamka ( 1st year 2nd sem )
*) ME! ( 1st year 1st sem )


theme : high school students.

i'll upload more photos but different themes.
the theme of high school students is actually one of the themes sebab we don't have any clue on what we should wear.


so uhm. ill update more about star d later, alright!

a good "batik cake" comes from an expert chef

From the title itself i bet you must be wondering who is the expert chef. well ladies and gentleman, u don't have to fight over with your friends, you don't have to watch tv to remind you back who was the chef u used to see on tv, and you cannot tell me

"expert chef ? , le mak aku lah~"

is a NO NO NO NOOO, DEFINITELY NO.


and now, let me introduce you the new talented + expert + gorgeous + well-rounded chef,


*ME!


i know a few of my friends ( a few je lah ) will completely EXTREMELY jealous (kan ? :P )
and they can't accept the fact that i am talented in baking cake, cooking (itu belum di show off lagi) , frying (definitely goreng telur) and some other things that an expert chef can do.

well ladies, now i prove you wrong. hehe.

so today , me and a so called "jealous-friend-of-mine" decided to make a cake batik. even though it is just one simple cake batik, but i don't mind telling the world that ;

i am proud of myself for finally stepping on to the kitchen's floor for about 1 hour and make the cake batik.
(FYI : it's not easy for the expert chef to "turun padang" , lagi2 masa puasa OKAY ;)


The process of making it wasn't that long, as i have my assistant chef, 'pretty adeera' and that "jealous-friend-of-mine" as my bibik.


HAHAHAHA, THANK YOU BIBIK.

bibik malu malu~

the ingredients are simple; milo, coco powder, marry biscuit , butter and sugar.
(but to have a fantastically yummy yummy cake batik, it must have an expert touch. so, the cake was made by me and the assistants, confirm confirm la sedap kan. )

we added up all together and ada la some magic portion which me, myself and i sahaja yang tahu.

so, here are the procedures of making the cake batik

add up butter and milo+coco powder together

the biscuits

paparazzis shoooooooh~!
they're everywhere, it's so hard being an expert chef kan?

so, that's the story of me making a cake batik. yes, it is just one simple cake batik, but for me it is one SUPER DUPER BIG achievement. if mama knows about this i'm so sure she'll be proud of having me as her daughter.

tak po, balik kelate nati kakak wak so!


and oh, to bibik : gambar you lawa sangat ;P


HAHAHAHAHAHA